Even though words are worthless, I'm so sorry.

I'm confident that you can beat this though--and as long as you know it too, it will be that way. Hope the doc gets back to you soon, and in the meantime, be sure to have a cheeseburger and lots of vitamin C and B (for energy). And probably iron supplements too, I like ferrous gluconate because it doesn't make me sick, which is probably important for you right now. Low iron makes you sleepy too. Obviously it's not that simple, but it can't hurt.
Will be praying for you.