Hello Mike, Thanks to Valley I now know how to do this.
Good to know you are experiencing some ripples

my trouble is that I love storms and so create those.
As for teenagers it's tougher for them to make the transition to maturity than it is for men in their prime to adapt to being old. How do I justify that? The lifetime involved is how. The speed of the changes for the youngsters is far greater & the time 'allowed' far less. And there are no guarantees of a successful process. The effects felt are powerful and scary. This from one who never had the experience!! Either of teenage grandsons or growing-up.
I gave up work as soon as I devised the means. I was 58 - close to those pensions, slightly (I hope) insane and far happier out of the world. I had improbable ambitions - they are very safe to have. I still have them.
Are these message accessible by all and sundry? I don't know and don't care a great deal.
It is good to share, Mike. No matter what. It's another art form. After all your music reflects the sharing of your life and your thinking about it.
My teeth are struggling one by one to leave my mouth - they want retire too, I guess

. I am a shockingly good example to any passing youngsters who stare at me. I smile at them and they can see the mouth full of tooth-wrecks and rocky crags.
Old folk are signposts for the kids. And important as such. They look and see so very hard and well. I bet your granson observes you and all he sees is duly noted. No judgement just plain old noticing.
57 is a curious age, yes? The anteroom to being elevated to the peerage of antiquity. Very disconcerting cos we didn't get asked - just told.
I was writing to my son just before coming here and he was expressing some surprise at his being 48 in two days. All I have is the experience at 73 of something peculiar to me but in general terms common to us all I suppose it is a kind of bowing-down, with dignity, to the inescapable fact of our mortality. I may bow with dignity but feel like kicking the cat softly in a sort of rage.
My old dad, was, as were many of his generation, concerned with his legacy. I recall hearing him report on obituaries of folk he knew. Men. In those days, in postwar Britain, obits would also include the amount of cash the deceased had left. Thus it was my dad thought, that in the 'essential' way, he was a failure. Thus our society puts burdens on us. Today's is no different. We are expected - blah blah blah.
Let's not call these gems of frankness rants, Mike. They only qualify as ranting if we tend to repeat them over and over.
Here's to frankness and concern. And pleasure in the sharing.
Ben.